Wednesday, July 3, 2013

It's Official!

The hardest thing for me is when I feel like I'm left in the dark...

Tuesday was a rough morning.  The whole having to wait two years to have kids thing only bothers me every once in a while.  I'm not sure what triggers it, but on Tuesday I was sad.  I know working by myself for eight hours, on third shift, and having all that time to think, and think some more, and then think some more doesn't help; but I can't change that right now so I deal...and sometimes cry.

I'm just happy that the hubs was there to listen to me vent even if its always about the same stuff.

I was literally to the point of feeling like I was having a panic attack, so with some help from my doctor I have something to help take the edge off when I'm feeling anxious in these few weeks before my surgery.

Now to stop acting like a Debbie downer....

Speaking of surgery, I got a call today saying that its OFFICIALLY on the schedule for Thursday, July 25th!!!!  The boobs and the cancer will be gone.

I think that's a pretty good way to go into my off days and something to definitely celebrate on the 4th of July!!

Hope everyone has a happy and safe 4th of July!!

 


6 comments:

  1. You Can Come Borrow Paxton Whenever You Want :)

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    1. Bring him over whenever!! He looks like such a ladies man, Chad and I need to see him asap!! <3

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  2. My dear Emily, right now you are plodding along due to pain and difficult moments. Before you know it, you will be jogging in life at a delightful pace; just keep your eyes and heart on what matters most. There are many blessing meant to come your and(Chads) way.
    Love you both every minute of the day.

    Happy Independence day!

    Mom U

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    1. Thanks Momma U! Now that my dates scheduled my nerves aren't nearly as bad. I just want this all to be over, and I know in a few months to a year I'll look back on all of this and realize truly how quickly this all went. But in the moment it takes forever!

      xoxo

      Em

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  3. Danielle KnutillaJuly 9, 2013 at 4:09 PM

    Emily you are so strong and will be even stronger when this is through. Try not to forget taking care of your mental and emotional health through all of the physical health battles. We are still young with time for having kids. My cousin just had a kid at 42. I know we didn't stay in touch over the years but if you ever need help or someone to vent at feel free to send me a message or give me a call. Best of luck with your surgery and recuperation

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    1. Danielle-

      Thank you so much! I'm at a point now where I'm nervous but excited for the surgery, I think mostly so I can move on with my life! I don't always get upset about the whole kids thing, its was just an accumulation of everything and having things "planned" and having it all unravel! I am staying as positive as possible and trying to see the glass half full though!

      Thanks hun!

      Em

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